Suggestions for beginners

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Hello everyone, this will be my third time getting hyped up about learning metin2 development. I am currently a CS student in a prestigious university and i did my 2 internships on web development in a pretty good company but my last 2 attempts were just pathetic. I always thought i was adequate at coding and learning a new concepts but this time it felt like the source files were just too complicated to understand. At first i thought what's stopping me was just me trying to learn something with its all details before continuing to learn the next thing because before learning about how metin2 servers work, i tried to learn freebsd's features and even that contained a lot to learn so i became a bit afraid to continue understand and learn the server and client side. Then on the second try, i made some progress on freebsd but i gave up eventually cuz im a chicken who just runs away after failures. Well actually since it will be my third time, i think im pretty stubborn when it comes to learn something, so maybe im not that much of a chicken after all.

I dont want to bore you guys by complaining so imma just skip all that. I just wanted to ask that, what kind of a road map should i make as a full stack developer who is experienced on OOP cuz im just afraid to start learning it then fail again. My ego is crushed enough after having a quite good academic success so help me out pls. Also if there is other people like me who wants to learn these type of things, we can learn together so we won't give up that easy after each fail. I think this topic might be very helpful for the beginners in the future.

Thank you for your time btw, it means a lot to me.